I am listening to music that my dearest friend put together as a playlist for me.
From a Parisian.
I feel so special.
I love me some French music.
Perhaps because it is an easier way for me to understand the language, lyrics tend to be repetitive, simpler than every day conversation and lyrical, which makes it easier for me to access.
And there is just something to it.
I want to couples dance with someone in a cafe with ceramic black and white tiles.
The smell of tobacco smoke drifting in as the door opens.
The smell of coffee in the air.
The low light, the ambiance, maybe I need a French cafe in my home, whenever I get it.
Either that or just frequent trips back to Paris and this time to also experience the night life a bit more, the cafe music life, I got into the spoken word a tiny bit with my excursions to Le Chat Noir for Paris Spoken Word events and had a tiny taste.
But to be there with a Parisian and be let into that exclusive view.
It’s sexy and sensual and worldly.
All things I aspire to.
I got to record with Adriana Marchione today for a podcast she’ll be posting along side her ongoing project “The Creative High” .
I was really honored to be thought of and it was a great experience, and I have to say, I felt my voice, I was in my voice and it felt really powerful.
There’s something to be said to having an artist, an auteur, and a teacher, interested in my work.
How she described me.
I’ll leave you in a little suspense, but it was quite flattering.
The podcast will go up in about a week and will be on her website.
I got to share a part of my story, a bit about my process, my experience with writing, blogging, poetry, the little bit of spoken word I have done, my best friend passing nine years ago and how that prompted me to Burning Man, my other best friend and how she was the person to whom I went to for help when things all came crashing down.
It was a great experience and I didn’t prep for it other than run through a small set list of poetry pieces of my own that are memorized.
I have three of my works memorized.
But they please me and it’s nice to share them once in a while with someone.
I shared about the patron last year from Burning Man and doing the collaboration with him.
I talked about my memoir(s) and how I still don’t know what to do with them, or how to go about getting them together, but also, how much that striving has pushed me towards places and experiences that I was just not expecting.
It also gave me another taste of recording.
And I have to say, I liked it.
“Are you going to do something for the talent show,” I was asked by the amazing MC last night before it was about to start, “you sing right?”
I told her I didn’t.
“You look like a singer,” she said.
Now there’s a compliment.
I admitted that I do some spoken word.
But frankly, it didn’t feel appropriate to recite one of my pieces to the fabulous birthday girl, they weren’t quite in the spirit of what was happening, and they also weren’t pieces that would have been celebratory of her and her experience.
And that was important to acknowledge.
There was a moment, I thought, well, there’s that one piece that might be fun, but really, it would have been to garner my own attention and I wanted to just sit back a little and be a wall flower and watch the main act and really enjoy that I got to have the privilege of being asked and then showing up to celebrate someone’s life and the gifts that she brings into her circle of friends.
It was a great honor.
Although I had to bail “early.”
Though I was slightly shorted on my sleep, I came home and unwound and blogged and watched part of Stranger Things.
Side fucking bar.
I mean, I really can’t recommend it enough, except.
I’m susceptible to the scary.
And I did have a moment last night when I was curled up in my bed with my hands literally over my ears, because I did not want to hear the soundtrack and I was preparing myself for the scary, that I thought.
Maybe I should’t watch this right before I go to bed.
Check it out.
End side bar.
I can’t just get right into bed, even on a late night, so, not so much sleep was gotten.
I took a nap today.
I am so proud of myself.
I never nap.
And it was just begging to happen.
I mean, only getting five hours of sleep will catch up with me, sometimes it’s not so bad and I can have an extra cup of coffee, but I didn’t want to blow my vocal cords out and be dehydrated from drinking coffee today, so I skipped my usual Saturday morning large coffee with my person today at Tart to Tart.
Then went straight to the podcast, after that to Scooter Centre, then to Scuderia, since Scooter Centre was unexpectedly closed, aired up the tires, scooted home, ate a late lunch, caught up with a girl friend on the phone, and then I looked at the time.
I can nap for one hour before going to my new Saturday night commitment.
I folded up my laundry, nothing says sexy like knowing I’ll get to slip into fresh washed sheets tonight, and grabbed a pillow.
I lay down at an angle on the bed, on my back, head propped up on a small throw pillow and closed my eyes.
It was just a touch chilly.
Afghan, the one I got in the mail from my grandmother.
I reached for it.
It had been sitting folded on the end of my chaise lounge in the sun.
It was like being wrapped up in warm soft sunshine.
Best nap ever.
Covered in the love of my grandmother.
Warmed by the sun.
After getting to do some art and be available to my friend.
It was glorious.
I almost didn’t get up.
Had I not had that commitment, I would have gone back to sleep.
Grateful I didn’t, I don’t need to muck with my sleep schedule.
That might have been one of the best naps I have ever had.
It was good to connect with my people.
To see and be seen.
To not let myself be isolated.
A sweet, simple, glorious little day.
Full of light and warmth and art.
My life is fucking awesome.