Standing in line at the cafe.
I eavesdrop on the matrons in front of me espousing the artisanal toast options.
In between chat of avocados and sea salt
I think about you.
Wondering how it is that I seem to have fallen
Again.
Again.
Again.
In love with you.
There is this continuous deep dive into you.
I question the $5.62 I spent on the latte,
Then reverse the thought of scarcity,
Settling, as I do at table, abandoned and
Left to me at just the right time so that I may contemplate
Delirious sun setting splendor through the
Corporeal windows framing the street scene.
The palimpsest of my desire for you underneath that sky,
Like the twining of Christmas lights around a telephone pole,
Wrapped up in you.
Once my latte arrives, I sigh with pleasure.
It was worth the cost of admission.
Like you, it is the best in the city.
Reminding me too, of our moment there months ago
When I sitting ensconced in the window seat fervent with fresh love for you
Scribbling poetry about you into my notebook
Whilst you texted me from the long line sprawling out the door,
“Are you hungry?”
And when I didn’t respond, too wrapped up in my poem, you
My muse,
Brought me back a salad with my coffee.
I saw the text as you were walking back with the plate,
My response would have been, “hungry for you,” but a salad will suffice.
For the moment.
That reply died on my fingertips as I was too caught in the splendor of light
Falling though the window, making you seem already a nostalgia piece.
You lit up, loved up by the glittering filament of sunshine splayed across your face.
I regarded that space today, from a different table, marveling at how
I catch the feeling of you with all my senses.
You embody me.
I am entwined with you.
A double helix.
An infinity sign, worn in silver on my wrist.
Possessed and pleased and dressed up in pleasure, encircled.
The gift of the Universe in a little blue box.
What I once thought was a hoax.
Soap opera.
Dramatic invention.
Fairy tale.
Fable.
Why!
Turns out ’tis true.
There is love and then, there is you.
Inflamed I sit now
Amongst the hum of humanity, the clatter of cups and spoons.
To find myself
Transported to you.
Not for naught this love for you.
Love notes scrawled on a legal pad
Dressed up in a leather-bound folder
My Balthazar baby, conversations on the sidewalk after brunch.
You are everything and everywhere.
Tattooed, literally into my center.
I hold you tight.
I am content.
Knowing, for you told me so,
That I am your dream baby.
Knowing.
That I am.
Now and always.
Your,
Baby girl.
Auntiebubba 