You realized the decaf you ordered at 5:30 p.m., because you just really wanted some warm milk in your tummy to hold you over until you got home from working a long ass day and also going to a two-hour open house at the place you want to intern at where they have six spots and 70 fucking people showed up and you know you’re going to get it, because you are, and then you get home and eat dinner and clean and grocery shop and go do the deal and laugh and flirt and give a guy your number and then walk home past the crazy drug addled dude by the 7-11 twirling a hockey stick and doing bad moves from Karate Kid and you get home and it’s all cozy and nice and you light up all the candles in the house, and then decide to wash the bathroom sink, oh! That might not have been decaf.
Yeah.
That moment.
Oh.
Shit.
That decaf wasn’t decaf.
Motherfuckers.
I’m like wide awake.
Fuck me.
Oh well.
At least I should be able to crank out my blog pretty quick and I’m always down for that.
I had a good day and that might be a part of the seeming adrenalin rush that I feel, but I do suspect that the decaf was full on caffeinated.
But yes.
A good day.
I walked through some fear, I talked to my employer about needing to leave early from work the next two weeks for the practicum open houses I need to attend to school.
I really only want to apply to this particular site.
I love that it’s literally two and a half blocks away from my job.
I love the modality.
Gestalt.
Think humanistic, existential, depth psychology.
If you don’t know anything about Gestalt.
That and the site that I am going to get into, because I am, is also the only academically recognized Gestalt facility in the entire United States.
Oh.
There are other places that do Gestalt.
Esalen anyone?
But the facility is something special and I really had such a connection with the class when I took it this past summer, plus I really adore the facilities director, in fact, we had a great big hug and a nice check in chat before the open house got underway.
This does not guarantee me a spot.
It does not.
But it bodes well.
I think.
I already feel connected to the community and I appreciate what the site is doing.
Low cost, sliding scale therapy for individuals, couples, family, and kids.
Pretty cool.
And there’s night and weekend hours available.
Although the is one day a week that is mandatory, Wednesdays 12:30p.m.-5:30p.m.
I’m a little uncertain how I would deal with that and work, but it’s possible, anything is possible.
I’ll be talking with my employer more tomorrow.
Today we got all the tax paper work sorted out and by next week I should be legally on the books and over the table.
I have to say that I’m cool with being over the table, but I haven’t had nary a qualm about this last three weeks getting paid without the plethora of taxes being taken out that normally are.
I claim zero.
So, it’s about 30-32% of my paycheck goes into taxes.
But.
I never pay in.
I haven’t paid in since I was tipped off how to run my nanny taxes to work for me not against me, that in the long run, if I can hold out, having more taken out works better as it’s also like having a forced savings account.
I’ll be doing my taxes this weekend.
I know such sexy plans.
Oh and writing my first paper of the semester for my Trauma class.
Yeah.
Super sexy.
But I’m sure I’ll have time for a little fun in there.
At least I’m going to try.
I’m also going to get some interview clothes together, although I was a bit surprised by how casual the crew was tonight at the open house, even I in my Converse was much more dressed up (long skirt, tights, blouse, black cardigan) than the majority of the group.
There will be group interviews and solo interviews and I will be prepared for them.
I’m also hoping.
I haven’t heard back from the Liberation Institute in regards to my resume, that I also get in there and don’t have to worry about doing a bunch of interviews for the site placement.
The less I can do the better.
The less time off from work.
The less effort I need to apply to applications and interviews.
The easier this whole process will be.
So much work to work for free.
Seriously.
Anyways.
I do feel a little less stressed and a little more relaxed, I have an idea of how it all works and I’ll show up for the other open houses and apply to all the CIIS sites and that’s four places.
I’m not applying to the 6-8 sites that is recommended.
I’m just not.
I can’t devote that much more time to it.
I believe I will get placed and I’m not going to get myself flustered about it right now.
I will.
However.
Focus on the awesome and sweet e-mail that I received from my advisor, who also happens to be the head of the department (I shanghai’ed him in the elevator when I found out my advisor was on sabbatical and asked him to be my advisor and to my surprise he said yes–I had him as one of my first teachers in my first semester and just loved him) who had officially today cleared me for practicum.
We’d basically already had the talk and I had handed in my application before the winter break when I went to campus to sell back my books.
But.
Today.
It was made official.
He signed the documents and forwarded them onward and upward.
To be filed in my file and to let anyone who might call to check up on my status for readiness, that I was and am indeed ready.
Pretty freaking cool.
I’m not a therapist yet.
But man.
I can see it on the horizon.
It’s rather neat.
I also see being up for a while before the rest of the caffeine drains out of my body, but I’m ok with that.
I am happy.
I am joyous.
I am free.
Yes.
Yes.
Yes.
Yasss queen.
Did I just say that?
hahahahaha.
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