I did not fuck around today.
This happens when one, and I mean, me, is up at 6 a.m.
I actually woke up at 4 a.m. to use the bathroom and my brain attacked me.
I couldn’t fall right back to sleep.
So many thoughts in my head.
So many places I wanted to be.
I had a rough time getting back to sleep, so when the alarm went off at 6 a.m. I was not happy, but I bounded out of bed and jumped right into my day.
I was up early to do my morning routine and because I had to be in Berkeley this morning to set up my account with Wells Fargo.
Grateful Heart uses Wells Fargo and thus, now, so do I.
I also was up early so that I could get across town and pick up another associate who I have known for years who happened to get hired the week before I did.
She knew I had a car from doing orientation with me a few weeks ago and had asked if she could get a lift to and from the city.
I was happy to oblige.
I was thinking earlier of all the people who have given me rides here and there in the city and how nice it was to finally be playing that gift forward.
So yeah, I could have used an extra half hour of sleep, but it was really quite nice to be of service to a fellow.
We chatted and caught up on the way there and I think I may be developing a new friendship.
With a woman!
With a woman my age in recovery.
So freaking nice.
I have had some dear, amazing, special friends over the years, but San Francisco can be a bit transient, especially with the rents being what they have become and the cost of living going higher and higher.
We talked a lot about that.
I told her about my buyout and she told me how she negotiated down a rent raise at her current place.
A place that although she does not have rent control, but because she’s been there so long and it was in an area of the city that was previously not a delicious place to live in the city, is still relatively cheap.
When she told me what her new rent was I was astounded, it was $100 less than what I spend her on my studio and I’m paying below market.
I told her she could not move, that there really was nothing at all out there in the price range that she described.
In fact.
There is little in the price range that I was hoping for, for myself.
But.
The buy out.
And having taken a bit extra out in student loans for this semester, I have enough to get me into a place comfortably.
And I can spend a little more than I want, should I need.
I started doing some bigger price searches.
I’ve raised my rent to $2300 a month in my searches.
Part of me cringes at that.
That’s basically a thousand more than what I spend now.
But I can do ten months of that kind of increase with the money from the buyout and with the student loan disbursement after I paid tuition, I can cover a few more months of that and be in someplace much more expensive.
Because, fingers crossed, I will be making substantially more money as I go about setting up my private practice internship office.
I got the small business loan monies, that I have to pay back to Grateful Heart, either through fundraising, which I will shortly be setting up a GoFundMe account, or through the accrual of fees from my clients.
It wasn’t a huge loan, $1500, but that’s enough for three months of rent at my office space.
It doesn’t cover three months of administrative costs, or the cost of getting a Square account, setting up a website or doing GSuite, which I have to set up all of that as well, plus business cards, but it gets me started.
I can’t withdraw any money from the account, I can only deposit to it.
So now that I have the account number I can set up the GoFundMe and it goes directly to Grateful Heart.
I can be transparent about where the money is going, that it’s not lining my pockets, but setting up a base for my practice so that I can get started.
So that happened.
Then I headed back to the city, dropped my new friend/old acquaintance, and headed to my first open house of the day.
I had four that I wanted to make before I got to supervision, for my other internship.
Between the two internships, I put in four hours of work on my “day off.”
I didn’t know if I was going to make all four, but the one I wanted to see the most was the one with the earliest open house.
And in the end, it was also the only one that I applied to.
Fingers crossed people.
I was ready to drop all the money I could on it, but the manager had very strict directions for how the process was going to go and I couldn’t get into the conversation with him without it getting misunderstood really quickly.
Language barrier.
So.
I just made it very clear that I wanted the place, I filled out the application, turned over my credit report, my letter of reference from my job, and gave him all the information he needed.
If I get it, move in would be next Thursday.
If I get it, I’m moving in next weekend.
Like I said, fingers crossed.
The only thing it didn’t have that I wanted was laundry on site, but there’s a laundry mat a 1/4 block away, so I wasn’t too upset about that.
It was big, the main studio part wasn’t that big, really just a touch bigger than my main room currently, but the kitchen.
OOOOH.
So big.
I mean.
Really big.
I could have a huge table, which I have always wanted, I have always envisioned a great big farm kitchen table to spread out all my books and school work and papers on.
I once housesat for a man in East Oakland who had this magnificent huge dining table and I would spread out all my work on it, it was just lovely.
I could see myself in this studio, with a great big table, a couple of chairs and just acres of room to write and work and do homework.
The kitchen also had a full size fridge, a full size gas range, lots of shelves, two windows, and a pantry!
The bathroom was no great shakes, no bathtub, but a good clean space, and a decent shower stall, plus again, lots of shelves, including shelves outside of the bathroom.
I mean.
Really I want the place.
I did all the actions I could do, now I have to let go of the results.
And I really made an effort to get to all the open houses.
From the one I saw at 11 a.m. on Guerrero and 18th (location!!!!) then over across town, like literally all the way across town, to a one bedroom in-law in the Outer Sunset on 45th and Taraval by noon.
To a studio on the Haight, literally on Haight street, just in the lower part, not the upper.
To another studio on Fell Street.
All three were poor fits for me.
The in-law was cramped, dirty, and ill lit, low ceilings, bad light, I was like, no more goddamn caves for me.
I said thank you, no thank you and left.
Which was what happened at the next one on the Lower Haight, much smaller than the place on Guerrero and $150 more expensive.
No thanks.
Then when I zipped over to Fell Street, the studio was already taken and was no longer being shown.
I mean, literally some one did what I was trying to do at the Guerrero studio, but they managed to drop the cash to the landlord and get it.
There was an agitated man on the porch angrily texting a friend when I arrived who informed me.
Oh well.
So then I drove back over to the Mission and made group supervision with enough time to grab a salad from Guss’s Market and do twenty minutes of reading for school.
And that’s not counting the driving I did later.
I think I drove more today than I normally do in a week.
I am very, very, very grateful to my best friend for talking me into that car.
It has been such a gift.
So I took care of her too, my little marshmallow, and drove her to the car wash as well.
Before I did my evenings derring do’s.
Grateful for that car does not begin to even cover it.
Seriously.